Yer killing it John....

... it isn't dead Yet.. but yer not helping any...

Why ?!

I'm really tired today...

.. Mentally .. physically... and I need to be in my senses tomorrow... EARLY !

I don't know if Ill be able to pull this off.. its taking too much out of me... I'm hanging on.. but barely by the skin of my teeth...
And its beginning to show...

I disguise my fatigue in artificial smiles and small talk.. but I'm sure they see it...

One day I was giving her advice...

(well it isn't my fault... they jus keep asking me :p)... and she ended up giving me some..
(eeyup.. we see a pattern there.. don't we !!)


She told me Men and Women "befriend" differently...
Women "befriend" to care.. be concerned.. be there.. be the shoulder.. be the support.. make room.. make time... to cry with... to worry with..

Men "befriend" to take for granted... to be at ease.. to forget... to be forgiven... to take up room.. without hesitation.. to laugh with.. to forget with..

Well then.. I asked her.. what should someone like ME do.. I asked her..
I "befriend" Men.. in the only way I know how.. Like a "Woman"...

Should I learn to "befriend" like a Man or teach them to "be" a "friend" to a Woman ?

She had no good answer.. neither is too easy...

One day I was giving him advice....

... I ended up getting some in return...

... "When do I shut up"... I asked.. "When I do stop revealing all the machinations of my uncontrollable brain ??!!"...
.. "Never" he said... "If you mean anything to her.. she will understand.."...
"She might take her time.. but she'll come around... she'll forgive you.."
"Go on.. tell her everything.. don be afraid... !!"

I did it... and then... I waited... but it never happened..

I revealed all.. the good the bad the ugly the GRUESOME..

But nothing...

She had seen the good.. before... she thought that was me.. in my entirety...
She did not like what else she saw... not even a little bit... She felt betrayed.. I didn't understand...
I had told her everything.. .how could she not understand... I pleaded with her... but to no avail...

I tell myself I've given up.. but I lie... in the depths of my heart.. I'm still waiting...

People say I have an "Attitude Problem"....

.... yea they do... (Can you believe it ??!!)

I say to them.. I've just got the "Attitude"... they've got the "Problem" !!

B-)

No time to blog...

.. but then can't get myself to concentrate on work today...

So here are some ramblings......

Why do so many desi women find the need to do the whole "shy bride" routine after they get married ?

I mean I understand that not everyone is an extrovert by nature.. but still.. is there an un-written rule somewhere that if you jus got married, and you go to meet your husband's friends you have to sit quietly in a corner till someone talks to you ? (I din get the memo on this one x-( )
I mean.. what gives ??!!
Over the years.. at so many gatherings I have met these women.. these otherwise outgoing, talkative women.. who jus sit there.. waiting for someone (like me ??) to approach them and get them to mingle with the crowd...
I mean.. there are times when I'm the newbie in the crowd.. and I still end up playin the ice-breaker !

Oh well.. I think someone should jus tell em.. that there's no real need... and they'll save themselves a lot of time (and boredom I'm sure..) if they jus mingle normally !!